May 1st, 2009


stand by me

posted earlier by william gibson...

i spent a good 30 minutes leaking tears while/after watching this, and i kept struggling to figure out why

then i realized - this song resonated in a way i haven't felt before; the person i stood by for over a decade, the person who i stood up for all too often, is no longer standing by me

i know, i know, he left a long time ago in many ways, but until the last 6-7 months i was unable to/unwilling to accept just how far away he'd gone

i'm incredibly lucky that most of my friends both old and new are here for me, and i love you all for that, but i can't comprehend what happened to my best friend and it still fucking hurts