November 4th, 2009

asleep at mal 9/09

An open letter...

note: this was sent to both my senators, my congressman and the potus

Dear Senator Boxter,

Below is a copy of the message I just sent to President Obama. I do not know how much influence you have to address these issues, but I would ask that you do all you can both for our country and for you and the Democratic Party in general. If these issues are not addressed, I do not think that the Democratic party will retain control of the House and Senate for long, and I fear for what will happen to our country if that is the case.

Thank You for your time and efforts.


Dear President Obama,

I was a strong supporter when you were running for president, and while I understand you cannot fix every problem this country has at once, I am appalled that your White House seems no better than Bush's when it comes to keeping secrets and infringing on our rights to privacy and free speech.

Your continued censorship of the NSA's "secret" monitoring of citizens email and phones is not what I or anyone I know expected of you. And this: is a complete mockery of the bill of rights.

Please drop this treaty, and stop allowing the content providers to dictate policy.

Please allow the investigation into the NSA to proceed with your full cooperation, and live up to your promise of an open and honest administration.

You're making progress, albeit slowly, on health care and education, and our economy is at least a bit better (although like many people I am unemployed and have been since May 09), but your administration seems to be favoring big business over the working class quite often and that too is a disappointment to me.

As someone who was proud to see you elected, I cannot adequately express my frustration with your administration regarding these critical issues for the vast majority of Americans. So while I applaud some of your accomplishments, I continue to find myself embarrassed by our government in many ways. This was not why we worked so hard to elect you, and our hopes, our wish for change seems to be falling victim to special interests and corporate America once again.

Please restore our faith in you and your administration before you lose us for good.

Thank You,

[ETA] perhaps if enough of us remind our government of this, it will make a difference; to reach them follow the links from

and there's a follow up on the copyright issue: Secret copyright treaty gets worse: it coulld put kids in *jail* for noncommercial copyright violations #acta
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more politics...

i read the following article about a decision by the US Second Circuit Court and it's linked sources - it is horrifying to me that our courts are helping to cover up and even endorsing torture, and that the president we elected on the promise of change is condoning this

plus the election results and bullshit from yesterday - i am once again ashamed of my country, my fellow citizens, and in fact most of humanity - i do not care what race, religion, sexuality, or gender you are; it doesn't matter where you live or what you do for work/school/fun/worship; it is never, ever acceptable to deprive others of their rights

to quote carl sagan "we are all made of star stuff"; so we all have but a short time alive, and then we all die and our bodies break down and become star stuff once more - to me that means that your belief in God, Buddah or Allah, Jesus, Zeus, the Torah, the Flying Spagetti Monster or who/whatever you chose to worship gives you no right to dictate what i believe, to limit my freedoms, to tell me that my life is unequal to yours
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little bits of me; thoughts, hopes and fears

the struggle continues, some days i have hope, other days i feel total despair, but i have to say thank you to everyone who reads what i write, writes things that make me think, helps me hold on

the anger and frustration with politics, divorce stuff, and my disgust with humanity in general is still here, but there are also brilliant, wonderful people, writing, art, music, science, etc that elicit a wow, a smile, a giggle or even make me cry but not in a bad way and i should talk about that more often

i tend to dump fun/cool things into twitter or take a quick note to refer to later, but today i want to write a bit more about some of these ideas and where they fit in my thoughts, and because writing sometimes helps me remember

a quote from brightlotusmoon I don't care, I am not my pain, my pain is not my life., and a few tweets I figured it out. It is about chasing your dreams... That is how dancing saves us. and If I let someone else's douchbaggery keep me from doing the things I love, then they win. and "Think of pain as weakness leaving the body." are all good reminders for me

and itsume said The soul needs feeding with friends, music, culture, fun etc. Without it chronic pain is worse and we (who have it) lose the desire to fight for out health and our lives. When chronic pain is in your life, you really have to struggle to find a reason to get out of bed. Friends and good times can make all the difference in the world.

I used to say, I am going to hurt, even if I am in bed, so I might as well do the things I can do.

I know people don't get it, but you can have fun even when you hurt, you can have a social life when a normal 9-5 job is difficult to maintain. You still get to have a social life if part of it is sleeping on a couch in a club.

Collapse )the point being that i guess if someone who is immortal is afraid of losing part of himself when he doesn't remember things then i can be afraid too, but i need to stop letting the bad stuff be the focus of my writing or my life no matter where i am

and i need to dance more - because for me, my body moving to music is that constant Jack talks about

hmmm... now that i think about it, maybe if i try using the clubs and dancing over the years as a starting point i'll have a foundation for a memory structure that works for me (the clubs, the dancing, the people that have been part of my life because i dance are usually as easy to recall as the music and the words to songs)
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tweets (3 days worth; loudtwitter failure)

* RT@Theremina "BOINGBOING: Better than a snuggie and a bonghit." [Bwaahaaa! Best compliment EVAR.] about 16 hours ago from Twitterrific
* is also awesome about 18 hours ago from Twitterrific
* too funny - a "psa" for doucebag solidarity (the end is the best part) about 18 hours ago from Twitterrific
* this too about 20 hours ago from Twitterrific
* and about 20 hours ago from Twitterrific
* and this about 20 hours ago from Twitterrific
* cool science from @warrenellis about 20 hours ago from Twitterrific
* Chimamanda Adichie: The danger of a single story | Video on - thank you internets for showing me this about 22 hours ago from web
* @ferrethimself on friends - - melancholy but true, and i'm v. lucky to have local friends too
* @nadya - ouch; i hope you get the Mac sorted out; no resource intensive programs so pinwheel of death is very rare, and reboot fixes it 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* read this when brain works (via @shadesong) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* interesting, must look further into this 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* btw - spending a lot of today online, catching up with stuff and hunting for jobs - hence the sporadic posts for so many hours... 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* and this from @shadesong substitute (blonde, purple, etc) mohawk and that's damn close to me 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* christopher walken does lady gaga - - fabulous!! 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* (part 2) @greygirlbeast, @cmpriest, @catvalente, @peterstraubnyc, @shadesong, et al!! 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* wait - that's 3 women auhors and two anthologies w/ lots more in the top 10 sf/f? way to go amazon and (see part 2) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* congrats @greygirlbeast Amazon Top 10 S&SF Books of 2009. THE RED TREE @ #2, w/ @catvalente's PALIMPSEST @ #1! Booya! : 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* an a laugh from lamiaprime on lj 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* @NuiCobalt - sorry your day isn't going so great; remember we all know you're amazing and love you ;) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* really cool (science is awesome) relative size of cells, dna, viruses, etc 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* RT@joreth Jenny McCarthy Body Count Video - #vaccine #antivax #science (@badastronomer have you seen this yet?) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* RT@joreth RT @CS999: Christians decided to make their own Twitter - #wtf #atheism (I guess they're afraid of us) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* RT@geekgirldiva If you're in la, come out. I'll be there ;-0 RT@NuiCobalt: So excited for next Wednesday, 11/11 ... 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* RT@racheline_m How you can help marriage equality in Maine: -- read, act, and please RT #LGBT 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* another prompt (via shadesong on lj) 1 day ago from Twitterrific
* RT@Joreth Catholics trying to harm reproductive #healthcare: #religion #abortion #civilrights 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* RT@neilhimself A company Coraline Halloween... - very cool; wonder if they're hiring and in la... 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* boi wants... RT@warrenellis T-shirt Of The Week #002: HUMAN BACON is now up for your amusement: #TOTW 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* RT@GreatDismal More robotic exoskeleton goodness & fishing trawler sunk by giant jellyfish 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* RT@greygirlbeast New data sheds lights on the man-eating lions of Tsavo (1898): 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* interesting, and a good jumping off point for a post about food/cooking/diet.... 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* i need to work on this - RT@mollycrabapple Quote from my aerial silks teacher: "Think of pain as weakness leaving the body." 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* RT@Theremina Alan Moore, being awesome: [via @PaulKomoda] 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* @catalyst_echo @geekgirldiva @nuicobalt - ladies... i agree that baseball isn't goth, but i don't think it's grounds for losing freak points 2 days ago from Twitterrific
* @BadAstronomer have you seen this? you made wordlust today 3 days ago from Twitterrific
* - pop will eat itself vs. danny elfman's this is halloween - fun ;) 3 days ago from Twitterrific